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Cocoa died on the 24th of last month.. It’s been so hard not seeing her around anymore. She was the best dog ever. I feel like I’ve let her down, I feel like it was my fault. I miss her so much. I don’t see how all this is happening to me. I’m getting everything I’ve loved ripped away from me. I can’t take it anymore. I’m breaking down more and more each day.

RIP. Cocoa-Chu. I love and miss you with all my heart!
My little otter. -.-
1999-2007

I’m getting even more sick. I’m in pain almost 24/7, popping pain pills to stay sane. What have I done to deserve all this?! People make mistakes, but they’re suppose to be forgiven right? I wish I could do so much more, I feel so weak all the time. I’ve been excluded from things all my life because of my health and I hate it. I wish I could help my family, I wish I could be someone so I could. I feel I’ve let down everyone just by being me. I’m sorry I can’t be something more.

Cocoa, I’m sorry I let you down, it was all my fault, and now you’re gone because of it. I took you for granted. I miss you so much. I hope there is a dog heaven, because I know you’d be there.